12 Months of Robert Pattinson

So...
It's been like a year since I started this blog.
I went back and looked at some of my earlier posts...
I noticed a few things.

1. In the beginning I really didn't understand
my obsession with Robert.
I did realize that it started with Edward...
But I couldn't get a grip on it.

2. My October 28, 2008 post...
I talked about Robsten.
No, I didn't use the word...
But I went on and on
about on/off screen chemistry
between Rob and Kristen...
I was fascinated by the two of them...
Together.
Still am.
:)

3. I didn't swear.
Can you fucking believe it?
I was like...
all nice and shit.
Fucking A.
I guess maybe I was worried
that I would offend someone
if I fucking called the bullshit
like I see it.

Now? Not so much.

4. Going back through old posts
made me realize how much I have
repeated thoughts...
and even titles.
Kinda lame...
But shit...
A year devoted to one guy...
I'm bound to repeat my thoughts.
I mean...
I fucking have them all the time.

5. It's been almost a year of ROBsessed.
The blog that started it all for me.
I remember when G just opened it...
There were like 10 followers.
Now it's turned into this huge thing...
A Rob destination.
But I will always fondly remember
when it was just a few of us.
Thanks G... I love you.

6. And with ROBsessed...
came the RKs.
A wonderful group of women...
Strong, witty and brave...
They always make me think.
Sometimes they make me mad...
And they continually make me laugh.
I'm lucky to be counted among them.

7. Twitter.
I'm fairly new to Twitter...
But I've met some incredibly cool people there.
They think like me...
Or we share a wicked sense of humor...
Or some just say 'Hi'
when I need a smile.

Rob news fucking flies there...

It happens fast... and it happens NOW.
I can see it becoming another addiction.

Great.

Just what I fucking need.

8. Last but not least...
What have I learned in my
12 months of adoration and devotion to
Robert Pattinson?
Sadly... not much.
I'm still pretty much in the same place
when it comes to understanding
the WHY of my feelings for Rob.
Which means...
I don't get it.
Still.
My overpowering affection
for Robert still doesn't make sense to me.
And although I do have wonderful people
in my Twilight/Rob bubble
To help me get through
all the angst and anxiety
that Robert seems to cause for me...
I'm just as clueless in 2009...
As I was in 2008.

Isn't it a pity?

Bye for now♥

Inside The TWILIGHT Bubble...

Sometimes...

I have to step outside of the TWILIGHT bubble.

It seems so much calmer...

more rational out there.

But I rarely leave the bubble.

And why would I?

People understand me in the bubble...

They don't scoff at my love of Robert Pattinson.

They GET it. They GET me.

Bubble people.

I love bubble people.

I can talk to them endlessly about how beautiful Rob is.

We can discuss our hopes for Rob's career...

Or how sexy hot he looks in the latest pics that turn up online...

We can dissect his body language...

Talk about his clothes... the way he walks...

and bask in the glory of his smile.

I can't do this outside of the bubble.

Non bubble people...

Well...

They would look at me like I am fucked up crazy.

And maybe I am... a little bit.

I can admit that.

But in the bubble...

I don't feel like a lunatic...

I just feel... happy.

Normal.

Yeah, there is some angst in the bubble.

There is heightened emotion in the bubble.

But we are dealing with overwhelming feelings.

Loving Robert Pattinson isn't easy.

Wait... check that.

Loving Robert Pattinson is very easy...

Dealing with the feelings that surround Rob... not so much.

But being in the bubble makes it easier.

So every once in a while...

I have to step out of the Twilight Bubble.

I do what I have to do.

I take care of business.

But I can't stay out for long.

All the stuff that is inside me...

only comes out inside the bubble.

The bubble soothes me.

The bubble makes it OK.

Bye for now ♥

P.S. Any idea how many fucking times I wrote 'bubble'?

P.S.S. I love you bubble ♥ people!