All Roads Lead To Robsten...

I was forced... against my will.

Taken outside of my Twilight Bubble.

I was forced to interact with Non-Bubble people.

Is there a name for that?

Kinda like what muggles is in Harry Potter?

And if there isn't a name for it...

We definitely need to work on that.

For now, I just call them family and friends.

Yes. Family and Friends.

Sometimes 'real' life beckons...

Sometimes you have to do stuff

that is totally unrelated to adoring Robert Pattinson.

*shiver* Anyone else feel that chill?

So.

I'm having lunch with a couple of girlfriends.

And yes, as I have stated before...

Even I have friends.

Kinda.

Sorta.

Anyway...

We are talking about shit.

And really... it was shit.

I mean...

After a few minutes...

I swear...

It was just "blah blah blah"...

"Shit... shit... shit."

Now these GFs...

They aren't stupid...

(well, not THAT stupid)

So they know that I have some sort of affection

for Rob and Twilight stuff.

(In this case affection = obsession...)

I mean... it is kinda hard to hide everything.

(I always have the Cullen crest keychain...

Rob is the wallpaper on my cell...

"I'll Be Your Lover, Too" is my ringtone...

The Twilight CD has been in my cars cd player

since the day I got it... cued to Track 10.

I could go on... but do I really need to?)

And so GF 1 brings up the topic of Rob.

And immediately... I go into defense mode.

GF1 ~ So, I saw part of the TEEN

(and she totally emphasis this word... for my benefit)

Choice Awards the other night.

I saw your vampire.

He is kinda good looking.

*My Vampire...

I swear everyone in my life

thinks its all about fucking vampires.

And KINDA good looking?

Does the phrase 'Cutabitch' mean anything?*

Me~ Yeah. I caught part of the show

(I DVRd that bitch)

GF2~ What is it with his vampire look?

Is he trying to look like a vampire?

It's like he tries to be brooding.

*More vampire bullshit

I feel my teeth clench.*

Me~ Um. I'm pretty sure he's not really a vampire.

And he's just shy... so he puts his head down.

GF1~ Oh. Well, it does look like he's trying too hard.

And whats with that Bella chick? WTF did she do

to her hair? He's not REALLY with her, is he?

*Fuck. Even outside of the bubble...

I'm assaulted with Robsten.*

Me~ *sigh* Kristen cut her hair for a movie.

And its only hair... it will grow back.

And although it looks like Rob and Kristen

are indeed a couple...

I couldn't tell you for sure.

GF2 ~ I just find all the hype ridiculous.

I don't get it. What's the big deal?

Me~ *heavy sigh*

So... what do you think about this weather?

And so on it goes.

Non Bubble people.

Trying to get inside my Bubblehead.

Bubblehead.

That totally suits me.

It's scary to venture out of the Twilight Bubble.

It really is.

I always feel like I have to explain myself.

It makes me defensive and edgy.

Why can't people just accept that

I have kinda a thing (total addiction and devotion)

for Robert Pattinson?

Totally unrelated to Vampires?

And yeah... there is always ongoing drama

INside the bubble...

(Robsten Robsten Robsten)

But at least Rob is in the bubble with me.

I feel safe there...

Oh and...

Rob and Kristen are so fucking totally together.

Totally fucking together?

I just have to say it.

I have to.

Long Live Robsten.

Robsten. Robsten. Robsten.

Heh.

Bye for now ♥

Inside The TWILIGHT Bubble...

Sometimes...

I have to step outside of the TWILIGHT bubble.

It seems so much calmer...

more rational out there.

But I rarely leave the bubble.

And why would I?

People understand me in the bubble...

They don't scoff at my love of Robert Pattinson.

They GET it. They GET me.

Bubble people.

I love bubble people.

I can talk to them endlessly about how beautiful Rob is.

We can discuss our hopes for Rob's career...

Or how sexy hot he looks in the latest pics that turn up online...

We can dissect his body language...

Talk about his clothes... the way he walks...

and bask in the glory of his smile.

I can't do this outside of the bubble.

Non bubble people...

Well...

They would look at me like I am fucked up crazy.

And maybe I am... a little bit.

I can admit that.

But in the bubble...

I don't feel like a lunatic...

I just feel... happy.

Normal.

Yeah, there is some angst in the bubble.

There is heightened emotion in the bubble.

But we are dealing with overwhelming feelings.

Loving Robert Pattinson isn't easy.

Wait... check that.

Loving Robert Pattinson is very easy...

Dealing with the feelings that surround Rob... not so much.

But being in the bubble makes it easier.

So every once in a while...

I have to step out of the Twilight Bubble.

I do what I have to do.

I take care of business.

But I can't stay out for long.

All the stuff that is inside me...

only comes out inside the bubble.

The bubble soothes me.

The bubble makes it OK.

Bye for now ♥

P.S. Any idea how many fucking times I wrote 'bubble'?

P.S.S. I love you bubble ♥ people!