Day 33- Vanity Fair and Robert

*deep breath*
I'm not sure I will be coherent enough
to write anything today.
I can't sleep.
I can't eat.
I can't stop myself from staring at Rob.
Why do these pictures make me want to cry?
Tears of absolute JOY!
How can this keep happening?
There are so many VF pics...
I only put up a few.
I can only handle so much, you know?

I suppose I should address the VF article.
I was disappointed.
Mostly because I read most of the quotes... before.
THIS is the big deal reveal?
Really?
OK.
Like I have so often said...
I take every written word with a grain of salt.
The good, the bad and the indifferent.
Even ones that I would love to believe...
I kinda have to shrug and move along.

This is what *I* know.
When Rob was done shooting in NYC
and got back to LA...
Who was the first person he went to?
Anyone?
Bueller?
It was Kristen.
He spent the days leading up to going
back to Vancouver...
With Kristen.
He wasn't forced to.
He WANTED to.
And throughout the whole Eclipse shoot...
Who was in Rob's company...
again and again?
Anyone?
Yeah... it was Kristen.
They were always together.
Always.
Together.
And until Kristen flew to Brazil
and Rob flew to Japan...
They were together.
So.
I can only conclude...
That they like being with each other.
The depths of their relationship
belong to them...
But its pretty clear to me...
That there IS a relationship.
You don't spend all your time
with someone...
that you don't want to be with.
And it's pretty clear to me...
That Rob and Kristen
want to be together.

(Actions speak louder than Words)

My head hurts.
My stomach hurts.
My heart hurts.
I'm just a big ol walking pile of pain.

You might wonder why I keep torturing myself with Robert...
if all he seems to invoke is endless suffering.
Well.
Addiction is all about the torture.
I'm always wondering where I'm going to get my
next hit of Robert.
And when I get my fix?
I fucking overdose on it.
I keep getting hit again and again...
And I take it.
I love it.
I welcome it.
Sweet, sweet agony of Robert Pattinson.
Hit me again, baby.
I can take it.

I'm going to stop now.
I'm like...
clenching my jaw looking at these pictures.
That can't be good.
Yeah... like staring at these pictures
is healthy?
I have to close my eyes...
and count to 10...
Deep breaths.
The only problem with that?
All I see when I close my eyes...
is Robert.

I'm doomed.

Bye for now.

Day 15- Rob Kisses Kristen

Well.

You've seen "THE KISS" picture by now.

And although I was tempted to post about it yesterday...

I really wanted to wait and soak up the reactions.

And it was worth the fucking wait.

Heh.

The picture of the day.

And oh what drama ensued!

The Robstens collective SQUEEEE made

the earth move (under my feet).

And the Nonsten groan...

well...

That rumbled throughout Twilight land.

Now I will admit to loving the picture.

Not because it 'proves' anything.

I mean... the picture is a year old...

But its just such a sweet, adorable picture.

Rob kissing Kristen on the cheek.

But.

Right away the Nonstens came out with

their magnifying glasses blazing...

MANIP MANIP

was heard far and wide!
His hair wasn't right.

The sun wasn't shining right.

His lips looked fake.

And then when it looked like it wasn't

a MANIP after all?

"It's ONLY a photo shoot. Rob was directed to kiss her!"

Too fucking funny.

Really.

People have no idea if it was spontaneous or not.

and honestly...

ITS A KISS ON THE CHEEK.

from a year old picture...

We've seen more kissing in the movies...

Sheesh.

Why can't we just fucking enjoy the picture?

Why must everything be picked to the bone?

Oh. And.

Rob and Kristen...

Making us SQUEEEE

K-I-S-S-I-N-G

Get used to it.

:)

This picture is kinda sweet.

Standing so close...

Staring into each others eyes.

And I don't care if someone told them

to do this or not...

They went above and beyond

the call of duty...

They really got into it...

Yes?

Who's directing them now?

:)

The Nonstens had a field day with this one.

"She looks like she wants to kill him"

"He looks like he can't wait to be away from her"

Really?

Again. I just think this is a cute picture.

I love Rob's face here

(and everywhere else... of course)

Ah hell...

I fucking love Rob.

Lots.

And Lots.

I think this picture is my favorite of all of them.

He's so happy with Kristen so close.

He's relaxed.

So is she.

Just laying on Rob.

And while she may or may not have been

'directed' to lay on him...

I'm guessing the photographer didn't say...

"Hey, Kristen... put you hand under his sleeve."

THAT, Ladies and Gents...

is comfortable intimacy.

Something that Rob and Kristen have had together...

from Day ONE.

I just fucking LOVE the VF pictures.

Kristen looks positively GORGEOUS in every shot...

And Rob looks so calm and sexy...

Day 15 is a very good day.

Rob kisses Kristen.

:)

Bye for now ♥