Being Robert Pattinson

It would always be that way for me, too.
I would always love this fragile human girl,
for the rest of my limitless existence.
I gazed at her unconscious face,
feeling this love for her
settle into every portion of my stone body.

Edward Cullen, Midnight Sun, Chapter 5, p. 109

I'm all about Edward today.

Well, let's be honest.

I'm always about Edward.

Edward is where this whole thing started.

I read the words that Stephenie Meyers wrote...

and fell head over heels in love.

With a fictional character.

Yeah. That's right.

I said LOVE.

Sometimes I feel that I have to go back

to Edward...

To figure out my feelings

my obsession...

with Rob.

Edward is perfection to me.

I love his POV in

Midnight Sun...

His thoughts

his feelings.

The very things he hides from Bella.

Not only is Edward

beautiful...

He's passionate

He's brilliant.

His love for Bella...

Eclipses everything else.

I love how protective he is,

I love his possessiveness.

My favorite passages in the books

are the ones where

Edward declares Bella

to be 'MINE'...

Where his intense desire

to acquire everything that is Bella

dominates his thoughts...

His soul.

He can't be close enough to Bella.

He can never be satiated...

Always wants more.

Rob has fulfilled my Edward desires.

He is the nearest thing

to Edward that exists.

I cannot imagine another man...

portraying Edward.

Robert IS Edward.

But I sometimes wonder...

if another actor had gotten the role...

would I feel the same way about him?

At first I thought I would.

Because being Edward

*My* Edward

is all I ask.

But Robert Pattinson...

you see...

has made me love him...

for just being

Robert Pattinson.

All the interviews...

where he is so charming...

so witty and honest.

So modest and unaffected.

So clueless to his own glorious beauty.

How thoughtful he is...

and how much he cares about acting

and his music...

All of those things...

made me love

Robert Pattinson.

But without Edward.

I would never have found Rob.

And I can't imagine

what my life would be like...

without him.

Or Edward.

I love them both....

Together

and separately.

I love them both.

Bye for now ♥